oh what do you do in the summertime?

hello again. i haven't written here in months. i have been very busy completing my first year of college! boo ya! i'm pretty proud of myself if i can say that (: i have learned a lot these past two semesters and I have made some pretty incredbile friends. i feel so much more grown up and i'm not even a year older (at least for 18 more days). haha. there is no place like home. i love being home. i am here for 5 whole months. this is crazy. i'm sure i will start to miss rexburg but for right now i love being home with just my mom. i love having time to work out. i love being able to start new projects that don't involve school. one of my goals this summer is to read the entire old testament. i know i should have done this by now but i haven't :/ i am stoked. the goal is to read 8 pages a day. if i can do this i will finish it by sept. 3 which is right before i go back to school. i'm excited! (: i also am going to begin working on a memory quilt. this quilt will be made of old shirts from different activities, concerts, choirs, etc that i have been involved with. it is going to be amazing. i am excited for this summer. i have some job offers and i am going to teach little kids piano. i am a little nervous but i have to give it a try sometime. i know this summer is going to hold brand new adventures. i am currently making lots of personal and spiritual goals. i am just stoked to be home and be able to focus on something besides school and crazy roommates (: lol. have a good one!

today is a good day.

today has been a wonderful day. i really really needed this.

i woke up fairly easy today. i wasn't dying to stay in bed. i read my scriptures. then i read my other stuff for Book of Mormon class. it didn't take long at all (don't get me wrong i love the scriptures but sometimes it takes forever to read my student manual). anyways, then i made chocolate chip muffins and bacon. i talked with my roommate about the gospel. then i did my calculus assignment that is due tomorrow. yes you got that right. i am ahead! i listened to rascal flatts! i love them.

i went to school. i was running late so my other roommate gave me a ride. in music 101 we watched a really cool video about beethoven. now this may sound nerdy but honestly, it was inspiring. it was awesome. then i went to physics. i wasn't really looking forward to the class because it is annoying. i usually go in there and leave feeling like a complete idiot. it is frustrating to never understand. today was different. my group somehow got to telling jokes. we told tons of totally clean, funny jokes. we laughed our heads off. i laughed till i cried. in physics. i know. man, it was SO awesome. i love that. then i went to calculus and everyone in my group felt the same about the test we just took (it stunk btw). we got similar answers too so i started feeling WAY more confident about it. then in Book of Mormon i just got to relax a little bit.

i came home. i ate some of those chocolate chip muffins. i ate some pringles. i got to talk to my mom. i got an amazing hilarious email from a family friend back home. my family got the letters i sent them. i practiced piano. i have my schedule for next semester practically done. i listened to josh groban. i remembered to water my plant. i felt the spirit.

gosh. i just love days like this. i am going to get ahead on hw, work out, make a good dinner, and do some crafts. it is just going to be an absolutely amazing night.

i also had my testimony strengthened this weekend. i had some hurtful moments in my house and not kidding, IMMEDIATELY after i started feeling down my mom text me just saying i love you. then RIGHT after that andrea sharp text me and just talked for a bit. then i went to take a shower at my friends apartment because our water heater was out and she invited me to come hang out with her. i went and got ready and my grandparents called. they honestly and genuinely just wanted to talk. they have been in france for the past 7 weeks. they called to apologize that they hadn't checked on me and wanted to know all about what i was doing and how i was. they invited me down for the weekend and offered to bring up a care package or take me shopping. All of this just happened. These people didn't know that i needed that support but my Heavenly Father did. He loves me.

"But behold, I, Nephi, will show unto you that the tender mercies of the Lord are over all those whom he hath chosen, because of their faith, to make them mighty even unto the power of deliverance." 1st Nephi 1:20

Heavenly Father never ceases to amaze me and remind me of his deep and eternal love for me.

i'm a grown up.

Everyone dreams of their life. I always dreamed about college. I dreamt that I would come and be a poor college student. I would have amazing roommates who I automatically bonded with. We would go shopping, eat ice cream, watch chick flicks, dress up, and flirt with boys. I would do super well in my classes. I would never change my major. I would be super happy and life would be crazy busy but mostly carefree. The most I would ever have to worry about would be what to wear on my next date. I would learn and grow a lot. Then one day I would be some fantastic guy and get married.

Sometimes dreams come true. Sometimes they don't. Sometimes they do but not in the same way you planned.

I can't write everything that has been going on in my life but let me just say this - I feel like I have grown up about 30 years in the past month and a half. I had no clue I would ever be faced with, connected to, and deal with the things I have this semester.

Let me just be honest in my story of my first semester. When I got here it was ok at first but everyone was just so different. My roommates are not very social. I mean they are in our apartment but they have little desire to go out and make friends or do activities. I was a little depressed. Then we had some stealing issues in the apt. UG. Then I started classes. They are crazy. I got a 78% on my math test. I've never gotten that low. I wasn't too disappointed but still...

I don't know why I even brought that stuff up. That isn't even the real crazy stuff. Recently I found out that two of my friends had been date raped. I knew that happened...but to my friends? NO WAY. My dad has been out of a job for almost 6 months now. He's been diligently applying but he hasn't gotten/found the job that Heavenly Father has in store for him. One of my sweet roommates, Hailey has been having some seriously crazy health problems. She goes in today so they can put a camera down her throat and find out what is wrong. She has lost over ten pounds because she hasn't been able to eat much. I swear she's only 100 lbs anyways. I'm worried. Two of my other roomates are sick. We think it's bronchitus. Another roommate is homesick beyond belief. She is from AZ and therefore hasn't been able to go back. I feel for her. My last roommate is having some crazy family issues. I'm praying for her. I'm not really at liberty to share what exactly is going on but lets just say these are not things an 18 yr old girl should have to EVER deal with. In addition my best friend in the whole world just left on a mission. Let's just say that takes a lot of adjusting.

I NEVER, EVER, in my wildest dreams thought that I would be faced with this many issues in my first semester of college, or frankly ever. I know I'm nieve. I'm told that extremely often. But I like it better that way. If any of you could see the devestating effects these things have on people you could relate. It breaks your heart.

I didn't know I had this much to grow but I guess this is one of those experiences where Heavenly Father puts you in your place and lets you know you have to keep growing and enduring to the end. I have learned so much already. I've learned about first impressions. I've learned about pride and selfishness. I've learned about judging. I've learned about love and family. I've learned about the dangers of the world. I've learned that I am very blessed. I have an incredible family who loves me. I have a mom who I tell absolutely EVERYTHING too. I live close enough to be able to go home and see them. I haven't gotten sick (knock on wood). I'm not getting surgery. I have a great calling that allows me to serve the girls in my ward. I don't have to take very many foundation classes. I have food to eat. I have wholesome relationships. I have the gift of the Holy Ghost and the scriptures. I have a super cute room. I have a piano and workout room REALLY close to me. I have the new mindy gledhill cd. I have chocolate ice cream. I live super close to the grocery store. I have an inspiring piano teacher and professor. My favorite cereal was on sale. But honestly, the purpose of this post was not only to get my feelings out there but to express that I think the best thing to do is to never get down on yourself or feel bad for yourself. If you ever do, pray. Read the scriptures. AND most important...serve. That has honestly been the saving grace for me with all these trials. It's hard, don't get me wrong. Sometimes I would rather sulk in my misery and eat a gallon of ice cream. But it helps me SO much when I strive to thing about others. They have problems too. I challenge you, to try to serve when you are feeling caught up with yourself or when you being tried.

I know that everything happens for a reason. I have already been so blessed with my experiences here that have enabled me to help others in similar situations. I know I am being prepared for something better.

(: