passion.

wow. Well here I am sitting in my dorm room. It's been awhile since I've updated this thing and even if no one cares I feel obligated to update the blog on my current situation and thoughts.

College is honestly crazy. It is everything I expected and nothing I expected. Let me explain. BYU-I is amazing. There is an incredible spirit here. The campus in simply beautiful. The people are friendly (minus the girl who got up and moved after I sat next to her but that's her business). Calculus and physics are challenging. The h.w. is intense. My room is cute. On the other hand I have had some very unexpected situations come into my life. Some that are amazing and others not so much. I was called to 2nd counselor of my ward's Relief Society. It is amazing. The other members of the presidency are inspiring and loving. They are also real. I love that about them. We are going to the temple tomorrow (: yay! I've been needing that.

The last couple weeks have been terribly stressful and emotional. I'm not complaining. My problems are not anywhere near what many others in the world are facing but they are still problems. I won't tell you exactly what is going on since I can't disclose much of the information but it is at times quite overwhelming.

My piano professor and wonderful mother put some things in perspective for me.

I went in to play some music for the piano professor so he could assess my talent and recommend my student teacher as to where to direct me as to goals for this semester. I played my piece and he pointed out some good things I did. He then asked me what my goals were. I said that I wanted to work on the technical aspect of piano since I believe I have a good grip on playing with emotion. He then sat for a second and said: "You don't need to work on the technical aspect. You have everything that you need. You are talented, and you are musical, but your real gift is your passion. I sense a great sense of energy in you. The reason you are having a hard time deciding what to minor in is because of your passion. When you pick something to do you stick to it. You have a strong conviction and dedication and you don't do anything half way. Your passion comes through in your music. You invest so much of yourself into the piece sometimes though that it becomes overwhelming and the passion overcomes your ability to relax and play. You need to learn to hold some of yourself back."

Sorry that that was so long but it conveys a special message and insight for me that I never realized. I am very defensive of things that I care about. I get personally offended when someone speaks against the gospel or my friends. I get "depressed" when people mock my love for academics and music. When people question my abilities or my loves or passions I get frustrated. I don't like to do things half way. I work and give things my all. I devote my whole self to things I am set on doing.

It is just a part of me. I love the gospel. I love to learn. I love music. I love my best friend. I love my family. I love the scriptures. I love feeling the spirit. I love praying and getting answers. I love going to the temple. I love being me. and that's all that I can be.

"Whatever you are, be a good one." -quote above our front door.

HUNGER GAMES CAST.

ok blogger wants to keep messing up how it looks so sorry if things look messed up. i really tried to fix them (:


Katniss Everdeen -Emily Browning

Peeta -William Moseley

Gale - Adam Gregory

Haymitch - Hugh Laurie

Rue - Yara Shahidi

Thresh - Tristan Wilds

























Finnick - Adam Senn

Prim - Elle Fanning

Glimmer - Emma Degerstedt

Cinna - Hugh Dancy

Johanna or Clove - Lyndsy Fonseca

Mags or Pres. Coin - Dame Judi Dench

Cato - Stanslav Ianevski

Mr. Everdeen - Jeffrey Morgan

there are many more characters but this is what I had patience to find today! (:

food and the other things that occupy my mind.

#1 FOOD

I love food! I absolutely love it. I have eaten so badly this week. It's quite horrible. Here is a list of the junk I have eaten just this week:

Funnel Cake
Costco pizza
Coldstone ice cream (sweet cream ice cream w/ pecans, peanut butter, fudge, and brownies - stop drooling)
Taco Bell nachos
Taco Bell bean burrito
McDonalds smoothie
About 10 homemade banana chocolate chip muffins
McDonalds BBQ snack wrap w/ fries and a sprite

yeah its all pretty great stuff! I should probably start to fight this addiction.

#2 MUSIC

I am pretty much obsessed with Francesca Battistelli and Kerrie Roberts. They are both Christian artists which I am falling deeper and deeper in love with. But honestly, their music is so original, beautiful, soulful, and deep. I can't get enough of it! I love almost every song I find by them, especially Francesca. (You see I know her well enough now that we are on a first name basis! lol.) anyways, to any of you who might be reading this, please go listen to these two fine artists.
Also I found another "band" I guess you could call them. Their name is HelenaMaria. They are two Greek twin sisters that do covers of popular songs. If you are interested search "HelenaMaria Love the way you lie" on youtube and click the first result. It is incredible. They are talented girls.

#3 COLLEGE

This along with dating, marriage, and future family plans are the only things people like to talk to me about. I guess you could say it gets tedious and annoying, but it shows they care about me and my life right??? Well anyways, whether or not they care, I have to face the fact that these are the things that my life will revolve around for basically forever. (Don't get me wrong these are all important and wonderful things I just don't like the rush.) The countdown till I leave is currently at 12 days. Holy moly! Where did all my time go?? It's so nerve racking and yet strangely exhilirating. I think I am more excited than nervous now but that changes on a daily basis. I still have not reached the realization that I leave in 12 days. Wow! It's gonna be great. We had our back to school father's blessing this week. I think this was an important mark as since then I have been more anxious and happy. I have been hesitant about my roomates. The ones I have met seem very sweet but I still haven't met 2 and I just want to have a good relationship unlike one of my friends who just never went to her apartment except to sleep. But in the blessing my dad said something to the affect of "put your mind at ease. the roomates you have, have been chosen for you at this time" whew! A complete sense of relief came over me and ever since I have been looking forward to this new experience and all the opportunites that accompany it. (: yay!

#4 ZUMBA

Sooo...with all the food I've been eating I've been trying to work out...you know try and balance it out a bit. haha. anyways, a couple months ago Jay and I were walking the track at the Rec Center. His mom and sister were in a studio doing Zumba. We could see in the windows and would tease Ana by mimicking dance moves. We thought it was all fun and games but when they finished it turned out she had thought we were being quite cruel. So we were dared to come do a Zumba class before I left for college and before he left on his mission. So on Monday we went to do the Zumba class. It was amazingly fun. For those of you who do not know, Zumba is a cardio workout that is based on latin dance. It is intense and I love it. I have since been back for two classes and I'm looking into doing it at BYU-I. You should all try it out.

#5 DATE

So my brother Jonathon turned 16 on Wednesday (his first day of school). So I am going on a double date with him. It should be really fun. We are going bowling. I will update on what happens tomorrow (:

PEACE OUT (: